Contradictions

I had a feeling of guilty,
but no one to apologize to

I had a feeling of despair,
and no shoulder to cry on

I had a feeling of emptiness
and nothing to fill it

I had luxury,
but no pleasure

I had Paradise,
but no Happiness

I had sensuality,
yet no desire

I was a master,
 but had no slaves

I was a teacher,
but had to students

I was a commander,
but had no soldiers